That’s Life..

Dear All,

I have moved to:-

http://thatslife-chapter2.blogspot.com/

See you there.

Cheers to new beginnings!

Love,

Idza

I’ve had this blog for years..and ever since Airiel came into my life I think its time for me to change and I’m going to start by starting a new blog..

I’ll inform y’all once its up and running yeah?

Hugs

I am exhausted..haha..tambah-tambah pulak semua nak kena buat sendiri and Aries jauh di JB..

Tapi my Airiel is changing every day..jap jap tgk muka dah lain..bangun pagi je tgk macam dah besar lagi..hehe..nanti 20.4.2009 will be his first check-up..can’t wait to see mcmmana perangai dia kalau bawak kuar jenjalan..

I am bored out of my mind..rasa bosan gile dok umah..nenda and bonda airiel keje..Aries pulak memang jauh..Atok bz semedang,,so tinggalla mama dgn Airiel je..serius nasib baik ada internet..kalo tak bosan gile wooo..

Airiel pun dah pandai meng’escape’kann dirinya dari bedung! Japje pakaikan dia dah bongkangkan..haha..bijak..dia pun dah tido mengiring.. and kalo tgk sekarang tgh berusaha untuk meniarap! Tak sampai 20 hari umur dah ligat! Sabaujela..

Its tough jugak berjaga malam semua sengsorang..and Aries tiada nak tolong or give emotional support..tapi dah Tuhan buat rezeki mcmni..terima jelah..terpaksa adjust jugak kalo camnerpun..

Tapi, the next baby will only come along if and when Aries ditukarkan ke sini..selagi tak..jgn harapla nak pregnant and melahirkan sengsorang lagik..penat! 5 tahun pun 5 tahunla..! serik ni..

Will upload pics of Airiel when the mood comes

Today Aries has gone back to JB to resume his work..

Nervous woo..sebab selama ni dia byk membantu..(thank you luv).

I’ve practiced doing everything on my own..and I know I’ll manage..tapi still..emotional support dari husband sgt penting..as you do tend to feel a bit overwhelmed by everything..so to all future fathers to be out there..please take this into consideration.

Nasibla I live with my family..so ada jugak org tolong sini sana sikit sikit..

Fuhh..

Other than that..I have to say..I miss work (sicko..i know) hehe

Airiel was born via emergency c-section at 4.43 pm on 20.3.2009, after more than 10 hours of labor and when the labor didn’t progress and the baby’s heartbeart was getting weaker (it’s what they call fetal distress), the doctors decided to go with the c-section.

Comments on a few things:-

1. Giving birth in HKL

Hospital Kuala Lumpur was my option because a) I know that a c-sect would be an absolute last option and  b) it was husband friendly.

Amazingly, the service went beyond my expectations. I came in with contractions about 5 minutes apart..nurses were all friendly..and doctors were nice..i was 4 cm dilated so I was brought to the labor room straight away. The labor room was super comfortable, private and i had a personal nurse attending to me alone in the room at all times. The specialist made half an hour rounds and the other nurses that came in stroked my head and held my hands..

When I came to the realization that I had to go for c-sect despite all my efforts to avoid it.. the specialist held my hand and explained to me what was happening to the baby and so I agreed to undergo the procedure, I was really scared as no family members were allowed in except Aries and Aries had not yet arrived..everything then became a blur..and then the next thing I knew, I was wheeled out of the OT and was showed little Airiel.

I would recommend giving birth there..the wards maybe are not as comfortable as private hospitals.. but the nurses really took care of me and as a result, my wound is healing extremely well and i was relatively in a pain free condition during my stay.

2.Berpantang

Berpantang when you’ve undergone a ceaser ni memang susah. Tapi my mum memang strict, cuma takleh berbengkung and bertungku unti after the 15th day. Tapi ubat yang pelik, and pahit nak mampus.. I had to swallow it all.

I can only eat either daging bakar dgn lada hitam (TAKPE SEBAB SEDAP), ulaman mentah, and sup ikan haruan hari-hari (AND I DON’T EAT FISH YEA?), sayur buah semua tak boleh, because semuanya bisa according to mum. So I eat multivitamins instead.

I gained 16 kilos during my pregnancy and have managed to lose 6 kilos in 6 days. So i hope the momentum stays..tapi terasa juga bisa-bisa kat badan ni sebab takleh berurut and bertungku lagi..

3. Work

I am annoyed at Aries’s workplace, dah tahu dia cuti..pagi-pagi buta nak call and kejutkan baby..a little respect for privacy is in order people. Siap ada org yang masih suruh dia punch in kan. Weii..updatekan la diri tu skit..

I mean..seriously, he is busy enough with the baby and maklumlah aku c-sect, operation..bukan mcam normal delivery..tak bleh bergerak sesuka hati..dahla pasal keje Airies didn’t make back to join me for the delivery or the operation. Yes, yours truly was completely alone tahu tak..

Dahla tu..siap nak suruh dia balik hari Jumaat plak..ada ceremony aperntah..now that’s a lousy boss if i ever heard of one..

And if I ruffle any feathers, then good..sedar diri tu skit..blog aku..suka ati aku..nanti bila ko branak..aku harrass ko hari-hari..baru tahu langit tinggi rendah..sheesh

4. Airiel

Alhamdulillah, Airiel tak byk meragam..agaknya masa aku bercakap dengan dia dalam perut to not be naughty when he comes out as daddy lives far far away..and I need his help to be a good angel..dengar jugak dia..

Dia jarang meragam..tak meragam malam langsung..time mandi pun tak nangis, legalah skit me and Aries nak menjaganya..all we have to do is wake up every 3 hours to feed him and to check his diapers..

Takdelah sgt sindrom tak tido malam..ehehe..mama loves you sayang..and so does papa Aries..!

The title of the post is the time and date now.. and the reason I’m using that as a title is that I want to remember this moment.

A little bleeding has begun late afternoon today..and at around 12.40 am, i started to feel contractions..they’re still relatively mild and are still hours apart..but if you’re asking me whether they hurt..

YES THEY DO..it’s like waves of pain..and you’re more taken by surprise than anything else..yours truly will wait until they get stronger and closer apart before going to the hospital or either that, my water breaks..fuhhh..

i truly do not know how my mum managed to go through this 3 times and Aries’s mum, like 7 times..its truly remarkable and I have a new-found appreciation for them..

A lot of things just run through your mind during times like these..can i go for normal delivery? will i end up having a c-sect? will little airiel be ok? sempatke Aries nak balik all the way dari johor to teman me? is there a possibility that i’m gonna die during this process?

Shessh..now if that really happens..this post would be rather morbid..i know..but still you just cannot help but wonder..

Still..I realised that I have indeed lead a full life..I wouldn’t change anything at all..

I am happy and in peace..at last..

And so friends..do pray that I shall survive through this ordeal to blog another day!!

Thanks for everything..and it has indeed been a privilege and an absolute pleasure knowing you all..

Love, hugs & kisses

Idza

I sort off got injured on sunday after dropping Aries off at the airport and have now been ordered to rest until little Airiel pops out..

Trouble is..there are no signs of this stubborn one ever coming out…apart from like..3 fake contractions per day…Airiel’s not budging..and is getting bigger. Doctor already says that Airiel is big for me..and I cannot go post date. Which means that if there are no signs of labour by 30th or 31st , might have to do a re-evaluation and a c-sect might be ordered..considering how govt. hospitals only opt for ceaser as a last option..it does sound rather serious to me..sbb I  want to do it the natural way..or at least try..

Dah dok rumah ni..I realised how things have been neglected around the house..lamps not working..bulbs need replacing..wood for the gazebo needs to be replaced..and so on and I realized that maybe..mum and dad is to old to handle these things anymore..

Alamak..tulah dia..pejam celik..dah semakin berumur ibu dan ayah..Need to help out more.

They should be be allowed to enjoy themselves now and just relax dgn Airiel nanti..so me and sis are  taking charge!

Tolongla  jgn ceaser ye? Amin

I move around quite a lot for someone that is as pregnant as I am..shopping sini..kuar makan sini sana..siap tgk movie lagi dgn Aries..

And if i didnt notice it then..i sort of noticed this long weekend that..a lot of people can’t help but STARE at my huge belly..STARE and STARE and STARE… hmmnnn..Aries just laughes away..but seriously..it makes me feel like I’m naked or something..the guys..girls..they all can’t stop STARING..

JAKUNLA you guys! takpe..aku kasi chan..

I would also like to congratulate Far and Lan on their wedding..wish you guys the greatest of happiness sampai ke anak cucu..it ain’t easy but i know you guys can do it!!! Chaiyokk!

Tadi gi makan nasik ayam pak mal..all the pakcik pakcik..abg abg and adik adik..were STARING at my belly..again..sheesh..mcmmana aku nak makan nasik ayam aku dgn aman? Shessh..

Kebelakangan ni asyik rasa nak minum ais aje..especially after ibu said..after you give birth..NO ICE FOR A YEAR..and then I asked.. bukan pantang 44 hari je ke?

She just said ‘YUPP..BUT YOU STILL CANT HAVE COLD DRINKS FOR A YEAR’ ..sheesh.. apalagi..I started on my ice rush like there was no tomorrow..and then she said ‘IF YOU CURI MINUM, I WILL KNOW..I’VE GOT EYES AT THE BACK OF MY HEAD’ ..if you can’t tell already..my mum terrifies me..she MEANS what SHE SAYS..so she says ‘NAK MINUM, MINUM SKRANG BEBANYAK’ ..at least dia kasik chan..

I can’t stop drinking teh ais..and not sebarang teh ais..TEH AIS YANG GUNA TEH KELANTAN TU..that’s what I want to drink..i’m thinking..my Airiel is a Kelantanese through and through..sampai jenama teh pun dia pilih…eheheh..dahla ikut muka Aries..ehehe..

I am going to miss my work while pantang (workaholic me?) ..tapi seperti kata ibu..need to get myself in shape baru leh gi keje balik..and ibu memang betul..so I need to get in shape..

Me and ibu and sis needs to get ourselves bikinis so we can go swimming..

Ohh..and one more thing..

I am officially ADDICTED TO ONLINE SHOPPING..(hangs head in shame)

* Aries and I still have zack in our memories and spent most of the weekend   talking about him..praying for him..missing him..it is strange how people can leave such footprints in our hearts..strange..Nanti bila Airiel dah kluar..me and Aries shall tell him about his Uncle Zack..and how Airiel should aspire to be as smart..as nice..as remembered..as his Uncle Zack was..

Al-Fatihah..

I AM 36  WEEKS PREGGY

I’ve been on leave these past 2 days..to undergo a series of tests for the pregnancy..

So news are below:-

1. I am no longer anaemic! Hurrah..Hb dh naik jadik 11..so hopefullyI have enough blood and strength to push the baby out nanti;

2.  I have gained almost 14  kilos throughout the pregnancy…a bit more than the doctor bagi..tapi these last few months, bukannya lalu makan pon..tapi still gaining..tapi at least tak byk sgt..;

3. Apparently my baby yang gain weight..not me!!! yupp..after various tests..baby dah 3 kilo at 36  weeks..now that might sound normal..tapi bagi aku yg ketinggian 145 cm ni..it mose a problem…i.e. pinggang terlalu kecik la plak.. so doc says..i need to give brith before due date..sbb takut berat baby naik lagi..kalau naik lagi..maybe kene opt for ceaser..which tak nak sgt!!!;

4. Hosp. sg. buloh tak husband friendly..!!! dah check dah..so nak buat camne ni? Kalau bleh nakla Aries teman..maybe akan gi ke slayang atau HKL..tgkla camne..

5 .  Semua barang untuk baby setakat ni dah ok..tinggal..mende cam stroller and car seat je..iu ingat nak tunggu baby kuar..baru nak beli..

6 .  Takut gak fikir pasal berpantang ni..ibu dah ckp..dia sgt strict…tapi asalkan bleh dpt body balik..ikut jela beb..

And lastly paling takut pasal pikir nak kena jaga baby sengsorang..sbb aries kan keje kt johor..sigh..camne plak ya agaknya…

Doa-doakanlah ye?

Ingat senang ke berjalan terkedek-kedek kat court, driving, pegi bank, pegi everywhere sendiri time dah 9 bulan ni?

U buat apa? Main bola? Badminton? Futsal? weekend ni?

Tahu tak barang-barang tak habis beli lagi?

Tahu tak u tak pernah tgk scan airiel walaupun sekali?

Bukan u nak sgt ke baby?

Habistu?

Habistu?

Habistu?

Don’t blame me for making this post public..you’re bloody well asking for it..

Tak payah sibuk nak balik..tak payah..I have been surviving for 8 months..so what is another month?

I love you, yes..but I don’t need you..I can take care of myself..

And don’t blame me for making this post public..because you memang cari pasal..seriously

And everybody else who is not related to this post.. I do not want any comments, advice..nothing..takde kaitan dgn u..jgn masuk campur..

I am DONE, and once my mind is made up..it is..IT IS

I’ll see you when I see you..but it does not make a difference really..

YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE..I’ve accepted it..why don’t you?

So let it be then..let it be…

“BETRAYAL IS THE ONLY TRUTH THAT STICKS”