That’s Life..

There are so many words I cannot say,
when I look into your eyes.
I want to be able to tell you one day,
but I’m left speechless every time that I try.

You must have stumbled across the key,
and discovered so much more.
You found a hidden place in me,
you found my heart and opened the door.
And I cried in pain
of losing my dear friend.

Will it ever be the same again?
If it passes will it be the end?
I realized it was worth so much,
as I lie in bed that night.
So I allowed my soul to be touched,
without even putting up a fight.
Are my eyes deceiving me,
when I see you standing there?
Are you playing games,
just to prove I care?

You speak my name in a prelude,
in a reference to love,
with such loving attitude,
as if it were a message from above.
With the palms of your hands
pressed firmly against mine,
a white doves lands,
and the sun begins to shine.

Someday I will see,
though that day has not come yet.
You’ll say you love me,
but will you ever forget?
If that happens and my spirit dies,
if my emotions drop,
will you want to hold me when I cry?
Or will the love just suddenly stop?
We can’t expect to fall in love and never cry.

You’ll stay and play your part,
but after the beauty starts to die,
will your footprints still be on my heart?
Though it would be hard to say goodbye,
your friend I’ll always be,
as long as we always try,
to keep the friendship between you and me.

The letter I will not send
will casually inquire,
how could you have brought it to an end?
I was your one desire.
After this life is over,
you’ll be one person I know I’ll miss.

It’ll be too late to start over, and so I leave you with this…
I’ll hold you for a lifetime,
if you’ll just hold my hand.
We could have a wonderful time,
in the days we have not yet planned.

When it comes down to something that’s real, I think i’ve went and looked at it in the face. I used to be so damned relaxed in watever I did and I dont know if that’s the right way to do it in honors..

I can’t seem to change though, I wont study if i’m not bothered..which is like..NEVER..I wont take notes if I dont feel like it..and that is MOST OF THE TIME..I still listen to music during all the lectures..because that’s just ME…and I still feel like running home instead of staying in shah alam even though my classes end at 9.30 at night and i have to still go to class on weekends…

But what I do know is that I’ll say my prayers in all sincerity to God everytime before each class starts..I’ll pray again when it ends..and I thank God every day that I’m alive..because if everything was as real as I thought it would be..I’d be dead now would’nt I?

Life is short..so enjoy it to the fullest..believe it from someone who actually realizes how short it could be.

One thing sucks though..I so miss my other half.. ^_^

Who Ever Loved, That Loved Not at First Sight?

It lies not in our power to love or hate,
For will in us is overruled by fate.
When two are stripped, long ere the course begin,
We wish that one should love, the other win;
And one especially do we affect
Of two gold ingots, like in each respect:
The reason no man knows, let it suffice,
What we behold is censured by our eyes.
Where both deliberate, the love is slight:
Who ever loved, that loved not at first sight?

Christoper Marlowe..