That’s Life..

I had a good friend in high school..although dah lama tak berhubungan.. I recently found out that her mother had died..

Even though I hadnt seen her in years..called or contacted her..when I knew..I started to cry..untuk apa tangisan itu aku pun tak tahu..

I’ve always seen myself as a strong person..since the freak accident that almost killed me and my family and had in a way, taken my younger sister’s life 14 years ago..life was never easy..in fact, it just got harder..I guess I hardened over time..

Hati itu kadang kadang boleh menjadi sekeras batu..tapi mungkin aku lupa..batu tetap boleh dilembutkan dan dibentuk oleh air..air mata mungkin..

I hope that she’ll stay strong..although I dont think I would be able to do the same thing if I was in her situation..

Maybe I cried because I realized she’s like me now..that we’re no different from each other..

Maybe I cried because no child should be left alone without a mother..

Maybe I cried because I knew that after this, her heart will be turned to stone too..and to lose the ability to feel is to lose the ability to live..

Maybe I cried because because I felt nothing..

Maybe I cried because I felt too much..

I cried for all those reasons and none of it at the same time..

P.S- Dear … please give strength to all those who cries..

Aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya

Yang kini hadir diantara kita

Namun ku takkan juga bisa menepis bayangmu

Yang selama ini temani hidupku

Maafkan aku

Menduakan cintamu

Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya

Dan demi waktu yang bergilir disampingmu

Maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu

Seandainya bila ku bisa memilih

Kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya

Mungkin semua takkan seperti ini

Dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku

Membawa aku dalam kehancuran

Maafkan aku

Menduakan cintamu

Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya

Dan demi waktu yang bergilir di sampingmu

Maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu

Seandainya bila ku bisa memilih

P.S Thank you Aries.. for sticking with me through thick and thin, for loving me no matter what..Its made me able to finally say goodbye to someone i thought i never could let go…

I.L.U

Honors aku dah abis..wahhh..baru aku realize betape blurnye aku slame nie…It was an experience i’ll never forget..macam-macam orang aku kenal..and I hope all of us can become somebody someday..I didnt want to stay through the final goodbye..I just suck at that kind of stuff..setengah orang kata aku ni keras hati..maybe they’re right..tapi bila orang sedih..saying "lepas ni tak jumpa dah", I just cant agree with that.. sebab bagi aku..this is not the end.. I know deep in my heart that I’ll meet all of them again time keje nanti…that true friends are not the ones that always hang around..but are there when u need them… and walau aku jauh… I’ll be the first one there if they ever are in need of my help… and thats what a friend really means to me..

Top 5 experiences in Honors :-

1.     I learned to loosen up a bit (thanks to Mike)

2.     Saw people fall in love, out of love, face relationship traumas and come out with their head held high. I’m proud of all of them…

3.     Tidur kat fakulti time buat Solicitors Accounts masa bulan PUASA :-p

4.     Mr Rajesh..yikes..!!!

5.     Puan Hendun (what a headache!!)

Bye guys..!! I will miss u all..and our class too..!!! I’ll see you around…!!!

Luv Always

^_^ IZA