That’s Life..

I fractured my toe…

It hurts..and throbs..and is currently purple..

I miss Aries..he’s gone back to Kelantan..cannot survive with fractured toe without him…cannot survive without him at all..

Youchy

Hate me today..

Hate me for all the things that I never did for you..

Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you..

I’m no good for you..

The one thing that always tore us apart..I’ll never do it again..never again..

In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night..

While I was busy waging war on myself..you had always tried to stop this fight..

You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicide and hate..

You make me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take..

I know I should drive myself so far away so that I never cross your mind

And you can do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind..

Hate me today..

Hate me tomorrow..

Hate me for all the things I could never be to you..

Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you..

I know I should say goodbye to you and wave..

Though I’ll stab myself and bleed for you for every mistake that I had made..

And like a child I never was brave enough..

And I remembered the day when I wanted to take it all away…

When I saw those beautiful eyes cry..and I held your face in my hand..

I wanted to kiss those tears away..and make you smile like the way you used to be..

When you whispered ‘how could you do this to me..’

Just hate me today..

And hate me even more tomorrow..

Hate me for all the things I did and said to you..

Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you..

I’m no good for you..