That’s Life..

I’m coming back to KL in 2 months time..!! yeay

It’s time for me to live my life..and really LIVE it

I remember this phrase that was in the "Walk to Remember" , a quote from the Bible that I find quite poignant.

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never
boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take
offense and is not resentful."

Is it referring to people in love or just love as a metaphorical satire for something that is ‘pure’?

I am ‘Resting in Pieces’ at this point of time.

I have been disillusioned lately, or so I would think.

I need to clear my head by going home..

And home is where the heart is..

My heart is not here..

I am having trouble sleeping lately..

I think my insomnia is rearing its ugly head again..

"Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces"

*Its time i let you go so i can be free                                           and live my life how it should be *

JB is not the place for me..

Our lives are moving in different directions..instead of fighting it..I shall let it be..I’ve fought for too long and I’m too tired now..

Am was right..it is tiring…when you love a person more than they love you…

It’ll all get better in time..

I believe it will..

Aries was asking me one weird question yesterday..to read his palm

Haha..yes it is true..I read palms in my free time..Well at least I used to..I was born with the hands..and I learned it (source shall be kept secret for security reasons..haha!!) and I just did it for fun..

Except when I went to Asasi and the news got out and people just came in droves to have their palms read.

Is it cool to know when a person is gonna lose their virginity before they do ? Is it cool to tell a person that the guy/jerk/girl/b%#*& they love with all their heart is actually cheating on them? It is cool to tell someone that your other half is going break up with you in 2 weeks time? Is it wise for me to tell someone that their mother who was suffering from cancer and who has been through rounds of chemo and lived through it, will have a relapse and then will breathe their last breath sooner than they think?

I really do not know..I think NOT for the most part. That’s why if I do read the palms and find out these things, I just keep them to myself..I really do not think we are meant to know what is supposed to happen to us..

I get sad when the people come back after it happens and ask me why it happened the way it did..Unfortunately your palms only tell me that it will happen…but not why.

We humans are caught up in wanting to know the reasoning behind our misfortune..but why is it important for us to know? Why he cheated on me? Why did my mom die? Why would God do this to me? I admit, at times I have asked questions like these myself..but unfortunately even my own palm does not tell me why..it only tells me that it will happen.. and I move on..

Sometimes things happen for a reason..but sometimes it happens because it is supposed to…and we all have to figure out our own ending..

I read Aries’s palm.. the details? the why? shall be my filthy little secret..

I have only met one other person with my hands..and he also has a gift.. (shshhh..don’t worry Abg Asril, its our secret hahahh..)

What does it mean to be free?

Will you really be free if I leave..?

Say you want me to stay..

Say something sweet and untrue..

Say you want me here..

I have not been in the mood to update this blog lately..but I suppose I need to jot down a few events before  I forget them or it loses its novelty..

I went to Pulau Rawa after my tioman trip the previous week. I had a much better time since Aries was around this time and the room they provided us did not look like a ‘tongkang pecah’ unlike when I was in Tioman.

Had a fun time snorkeling around the island and the water was crystal clear..gorgeous sea life..beautiful white sands..good company - I tagged along Aries’s AGC trip so all the happening people were there..! It was really funny but I shall not divulge confidential information!!! haha

I learnt how to play snooker during the trip..Aries graciously thought me how..met up with Kak Thalha..we had a nice long chat and talked about moments passed..

I did take a few pics of that piece of heaven on earth..tapi nantilah iza upload..mood tak sampai lagik..

Went to Kuala Lumpur last weeked and had an early father’s day celebration.. and bought papa some perfume which we gave during our dinner at one of his favourite spots..

Positive things are happening with my fam, even though the oil price will be quite a pinch for us.

Me and Aries are thinking of moving out of the house we are renting now..the snake incident was too much for our minds to accept..its time to find a safer place..Aries seems to be liking his work now and I like seeing him happy..

Me? Careerwise? After the interesting work I managed to do in SD, everything else seems so mundane..sad but true..so it can only be downhill for me..I miss the challenge of working with an extremely difficult boss..I miss the diverse, interesting, novel point of law work that I had before..I miss the thrill of arguing with my fellow counsels in court and giving my evil grin when I win..haha..Those were great moments..and its too bad that they have passed..This legal profession here is much to slow for me..and my mind is stagnant.

A lot of things have been playing on my mind..still trying to sort it all out.

I do miss home..