That’s Life..

Weekend was so penat..Aries balik sabtu pagi lps sahur..and I sort of paksa dia bangun kul 10 sebab dia janji nak gi shopping raya dgn wifey.

So, first we went to PKNS at Shah Alam to look for my baju raya.. Mak Ai..the place was packed to the brim..stuffy and me, being preggy..could’nt breathe and felt like fainting..so I pulled Aries upstairs…tak ramai org sgt..nasib baik jumpa baju batik yg sgt pretty and padan dgn baju melayu gold Aries.. so beli yg itu..

Tak tahan nak stay dkt situ..we went to Subang Parade..pergi Parkson.. me and Aries nak cari kasut..tapi Aries ended up beli perfume plak, armani mania..! Sgt wangi! I like..! I found my shoes..it was super pretty..and a bit blingy..that was enough for us for one day..penat!!

On Sunday..pergi Giant sebab nak beli kuih nak bwk balik ke rumah in-laws nanti..pastu I found these super cute brooches untuk raya..so beli a couple..and I found a kain songket yg pretty untuk pakai dgn baju yg dah beli tahun lepas..wah..sgt best! Aries jumpa kasut sandal yang dia suka..dia pun beli..

And then I went to a salon in Bangsar to wash my hair for Raya..ahh..what a pampering weekend..!! I blanje Aries some hugely expensive shades for the drive back to Perak-Kelantan..takut silau time drive, which is when we also found out that yours truly now needs to wear glasses sebab RABUN JAUH!! haha..and he is still in denial…!

So..i am totally broke right now..tapi takpe..rasa heppi nonetheless..

I am heading back to Perak on tuesday and then Kelantan on pagi raya until probably saturday..nervous nak raya kat Mars tak tahu nak kata..! Dahla adik beradik Aries from all the different mothers sumer turun!! Ishh..itupun cukup nak buat me throw up due to nervousness..dahla loya sebab preggy lagik!!!

Seperti kata ibu ’smile’ , ‘jgn ckp byk’ and ‘jgn sombong’ . I hope my inability to converse in the Kelantan language is not construed as ’sombong’ !. Only time will tell!!

Uisshh..anyway I would like to wish semua

“Salam Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir Batin”

God bless…

I have a certain nervous feeling everytime raya approaches..Simply because a few years back..10 days before raya, Aries had an unfortunate accident with a lori kayu..and almost died in the process..

Sheesh…alhamdulillah Aries masih hidup and breathing..and is now my lawful wedded husband (depending on who you ask) .

That is all in the past of course..but still, kengkadang tu, when things are just running so smoothly, it makes you wonder..hmnn..something is bound to go wrong somewhere kan..

But Raya is just not as cheery as all the years before.. familia belah ayah ada internal problems..and we are currently not speaking to each other..

Ayah is of course, a broken man because of the conflicts with the siblings, and I, for the life of me, cannot understand why grown ups like them cannot sort out things in a civil manner..

Sis is not going back for raya..and is broken to tears with the thought that what she did ‘berani kerana benar’ pada hari itu telah membuat familia ayah jadi begini..

But I told her, it is not her..familia ini telahpun menampakkan ‘cracks’ di dalam perhubungan sejak dulu lagi..dan mungkin apa yg sis telah lakukan dan telah disokong ayah, menunjukkan perpecahan yg telah lama wujud..

Marilah saya listkan , isu yang berlegar di dalam keluarga ayah sekarang: -

1. Uncles and Aunties kata, saya dgn sis terlampau ‘westernized’ sebab kami ada pendapat sendiri..dan tidak pula takut untuk menyatakannya;

2. Ada Auntie yang dengki opah sayangkan ayah lebih darinya..katanyalah..sebab nama ayah selalu disebut opah..lalu dikatanya mcm mcm dan dibuatnya mcm mcm sehingga hati ayah terguris..

3. Auntie tersebut sampai tidak datang perkahwinan saya dengan Aries dan telah melarang suaminya (yang memang sgt baik orgnya) dari menghadiri majlis kami

4. Sis dengan saya telah berusaha dan berhempas pulas mencari wang untuk mendapatkan pembantu rumah untuk opah sebab anak masing masing tak mahu keluarkan duit, namun pembantu itu dicari salahnya, dicerca dan dimaki, dan aunties dan uncles itu pula ‘meminjamnya’ untuk mengemas rumah mereka! Pendek kata, pembantu itu alhamdulillah kini selamat bersama kami di Ara Damansara dan tidak lagi diseksa..

5. Ada pula auntie dan uncles yang bersms kepada sis 2,3 hari selepas pernikahan saya dengan Aries mengatakan pernikahan kami ini seakan tidak sah! MasyaAllah..betapa tercalarnya hati saya tidak dapat saya gambarkan..apatah lagi hati ayah apabila adik-beradiknya sendiri berkata mcmtu..

Macammana hubungan silaturrahim sesama saudara boleh jadi sebegini? Sedangkan 2 uncles yang amat saya sanjungi dulu adalah ustaz, berpendidikan di negara Arab..tapi apa gunanya jika tidak dipraktikkan apa yang dipelajari..?

Auntie itu, jikalau pun terasa (atas sebab yang paling tak munasabah), kenapa tidak dtg ke kenduri kami? Bukankah anak abang kandungnya juga yang akan melangsungkan perkahwinan? Apa tiadakah rasa hormat pada abg sendiri..? Sedangkan semasa anaknya berkahwin (dah bercerai dahpun), bukankah saya dengan sis yang dtg membasuh pinggan, menyambut tetamu, mengisi lauk kerana auntie mahu menjimatkan wang?

Apa salahkah kalau ayah marah jikalau semua adik beradiknya mahu menjual tanah dan rumah opah yang sekangkang kera itu sementelah dia masih hidup kerana mereka mahukan wang yang tak seberapa?

Nauzubillah aku lafazkan setiap kali teringat perkara ini, jgnlah berlaku kepada ibu dan ayahku, mahupun aku dan adik beradikku semasa di hari tua nanti..biarlah auntie and uncle ku itu saja merasa diperlakukan begitu oleh anak-anak mereka..Tuhan itukan maha adil?

Saudara mara memang melecehkan..tapi tanpa silaturrahim itu jugalah, masa-masa begini terasa begitu sunyi..

Yang menjadi mangsa konflik ini, semestinyalah opah..

Tiada niat untuk membuka pekung di dada, cuma sekadar renungan on how lucky org lain yang mempunyai saudara mara yang tidak berdengki, ber’politik’ing tak tentu pasal..

Amannya korang dapat berhari raya .. our nucleus familia akan berada kembali di kl pada raya kedua sebab konflik bodoh org-org tua berlagak cam budak budak..

Nyeh..

What a productive week it’s been!!

I’m so excited to be doing what I’m doing these days.. I was in Malacca High Court on Tuesday..met Abg Asril- about to finish his chambering and Asriey- who FINALLY shaved his head and is as cheery as usual..

Hazri was apparently there as well, but since he was having a trial or something to that effect for Bank Negara, and I had to leave..I did not get a chance to see him..still, it was nice to be among friends

Anyways..I am currently nauseous..like unbearably so..this happens when I’m hungry..tapi I can’t over eat either..maka I shall throw up like no one’s business..Mum tells me it only lasts up to 4 months..so thank god..because it is really unbearable..

I currently have a craving for watermelons and oranges..and mempelam hijau..yummy..asyik nak makan je buah buah tu..

Sesiapa yang ader tips time pregnancy ni, silalah bgtahu k? Sharing is caring …hehe

Since today is Friday..Aries akan pulang..!!! I can’t wait to be in his arms..ngeee, memang menguji perasaan cinta dan setia bila berjauhan ni.. There are days when I feel that being apart is so unbearable..but being at work does help..

Bila agaknya boleh di transfer? Hai..susah ni..

I am so in love I gotta say.. with the lil’ angel in my tummy..and with the angel’s daddy!!!

Have a good weekend everyone!

I’m back in Kuala Lumpur!!! and have been at my new place of work for the past week..

Pheww!! What a breath of fresh air!!!

Work is coming in by the bucketloads..but they are exciting, challenging, attractive and I LOVE IT!!

As for the people..well, it’s too early to tell and I am a bit of a social freak everywhere I go.. but we’ll see. I do have some old Uni friends around..and that makes it better.

I am contented, hopefully ‘well-adjusted’ very soon and incredibly happy.

I am just sad that Aries is not here to see and share in my joy..but hope he will be able to.. soon..Amin